Juice Feast Revisited – June 17th

I didn’t realize it had been so long since I had written.  I’ve had quite a few days and have felt the need to get some serious rest.  Have you ever experienced one of those times when God’s hand is so heavily upon you that you can barely function?  That’s what it has been for me for the last 3 days but I didn’t understand what was happening until this morning.  I didn’t sleep much at all last night.  I was awake at 2:00 a.m. in a serious state with my heart.  Now I’m starting to see my way clear and I realize that God has been trying to show me some things about where my heart is, how devastated I really am, and how much hurt and anger are in my heart.  It is a very draining experience, and now I’m just working on re-grouping.  I read an excerpt from “Journal of the Unknown Prophet” by Wendy Alec.  Here is what part of it says: “And so beloved, my heart has been broken with the things that have broken your heart”.  Then it goes into how God is doing a new thing in your life and that it is time to cast aside what has gone before.  It talks about how your past must be put aside.  But in putting aside your past, that sometimes means everything that you have known before, and that can feel like such a tremendous loss that you could sink into despair over it.  But what I love about this part of the book and what is truly giving me hope is this:  “And beloved, as you determine to forgive in your heart and you forgive those who wronged you, who caused the betrayal of your heart, so I shall once again pour out My Spirit upon you.”  I love that promise.  Let it be so Lord…

Blessings,

Ginny